Counting down

Well, today was one of the most I-finally-understand-why-ns-makes-us-feel-dumb moments. Firstly it was when the higher ups told us to try and de-rust the equipment cage which was practically 100% rust coated - without telling us how to or even showing the ropes. -come I clap for you-

And then came the point when we needed to de-rust the equipment itself, and in this case we were told to dunk the equipment in a bucket of WATER and then take it out and SCRUB with a small brush. -come I clap for you again-

The best part was actually completing the tasks allocated to us and just waiting in the scorching sun and in the end - NO ONE came to check - -

Hooray.

On the bright side, its just two more days to the end of this year in the camp(please don't ever call me back) and just two more days till someone gets back too :)) ! It sounds saddening but these thoughts are what's driving me to the very end.

Hope all is well over there :D !

A new week

Drudgery seems to be filling up the weeks spent in camp doing things that I've never signed up for nor ever asked for. Oh well at least it's just 3 more days :)

Today was spent waking up in the wee hours of the morning (4am) and having to move out again to yet another location that promised bad weather and plentiful insects. Having said that, at least the firing went smoothly (other than the fact that the hand station could not be used at all and that the foot pedal didn't work as well). Came back to camp around 3 plus and stepping into the shower cubicle never felt so good in such a long time!

Nights out wasn't interesting as everyone just went ahead to do their own stuff. The perk was that I had the super yumz beef noodle at jurong point which was so good :P

And thats all that I can be contented with for now, until Wednesday. Other than the fact that J is coming back really soon too! -excited- :D

Never look back in sorrow

Finally back to posting something, even if it's just once.

Yup the hectic days are more or less over, and as the year progresses to an end, the holidays are just beginning (okay well for me at least at long last). It'll be a short 2 weeks but I'll try to make the most out of it :)

Endless trainings and countless outfields have made me disliked (fine its stronger) life as one who can only look forward to precious weekends (even so it's never confirmed). In doing so, I've realised and discovered myself even more.

Time is precious (duh). I knew that, yes but it never occurred to me until the previous week, when the weekend was suddenly called off and being forced to stay in. That moment of losing something dear was too sudden and it really messed up plans. And right now, stuck in the middle of nowhere, I'm still in a situation whereby I don't have another weekend.

It sucks but there isn't really a choice.

And I really need to improve myself.

As an individual who can take care of myself, as one who can avoid conflict, as one who can understand more. Lately there have been articles that mentioned how little habits could ruin a relationship and I'm guilty of several of them.

Too naggy.

I tease too much.

There are others listed such as taking him or her for granted as well, or being unable to balance between family time and friend time, as well as seeking happiness for oneself, and avoiding difficult topics. Hopefully whoever reads this will change those little habits too, because it does to a large extent affect how the mood is like. As for myself, time to change those habits and become a better person.

For now, it's a losing battle between the mosquitoes and I :(

A story of no conclusion

2013 - A year of unknown possibilities await the slightly wary but eager mind.

2012 - A year of initial silent revelations, and then a roller coaster ride which drove all the way to the limits, and a rewarding finish to the mad rush.

I guess that's how 2012 was in one sentence. But I've gotten one thing that has became so precious to me now :) That's all I can say. Because no words can describe that happiness, that illogical whir which swept us off our feet, those moments where we are robbed of our speech.

If there's anything to describe the new year of 2013 and my feelings right now, it would be this unlikely yet true piece of music.

A skip in the step, a leap of the feet, and off we go ! 

Bear with me for yet another year alright ? ;) <3

Get your one-year pass

To tell you frankly, we've never had a proper farewell and closure to our chapter. It's the same as an author penning down his thoughts onto paper and deciding it wouldn't work out - tossing it aside.

The truth is - I want to thank you for ending it early. It hurt both of us, yes, but it just hurt. It was a haunting kind of pain, but it was not an agony that cannot be lived with. Having said that, it opened up my eyes, that we weren't meant to be together. Mayhaps that's the reason why I bounced back so quickly. I left without a word? No, I had many words. But those words meant nothing - for it had already ended before it began.

No amount of 'sorries' can ever resolve that gaping hole which we dug up and landed ourselves in. Still - I am sorry, for going down to orchard that night in the end of November 2011 to pay a visit to a tinkering you. I am sorry, for having made you stand at the bus stop which was smoky and crowded yet flooded while you wore your green shoes. I am sorry, for having what was supposedly the best time of 2011, only to be torn apart on New Year's Eve.

I've learnt my lesson which you taught me. Thank you. Thank you for pushing me away. Thank you for making the effort. Thank you for J. You've lost a lot, and so have I. But we've gained priceless, intangibles in return. So may 2013 be a year of opportunity for you.

Carpe Diem

There once lived a boy who always felt that he was alone, as though something was missing from his life. As any other lonely day, he trudged on in the infinite wastelands, whereby rats scuttled by having their little races of speed and power. He looked up, and saw the gloom of the grey clouds shrouding the skies. He sighed, and resumed to plod laboriously in the desolate and never-ending landscape around him.

A beacon of light ! That was what kept him going. All he needed was some light in his life. 'Ohh how I wish that light could be with me so I needn't traverse this place just to see it."

Panting and exhausted, he put forth his right foot and dragged himself to the most western part of the land, that was where the beacon could be found. Alas, while the beacon was there, there was no brightness, no warmth. It was just stone cold, with it's looming pillar standing solitary in the area. "Strange, I've been here many times but it usually is pretty bright. There's even a food store there which no one ever uses." He was curious, and a little sad, for that guiding light which was always switched on and illuminated the darkness hitherto now, was presently a dull structure.

Movement ! Footsteps ! He shuddered with the thought of the armed robbers and thieves. Then he saw, that they were one, two, no maybe a small group of figures moving in and out of the light tower. They carried strange looking devices, with boxes that made little clattering noises when they knocked against each other.

"What are they doing?" Thoughts flooded his mind. "Were they the ones who caused this, to take my light away?" Deluged with questions and uncertainties, he watched a little more, with his unhappiness growing each time there was a little knock here and there.

He waited. For so long, had that same tower been shut off. It has been, let's see, five years now. Still, the boy waited for his light. Patiently, he always revisited that same western region of the wastelands. The rat race still continued incessantly, whereby the weaker rats were instantly overwhelmed by the powerful ones. He lifted his head, and the light was once more reaching his eyes. It warmed his heart, and made his eyes well up. It was a different light.

It was brighter, yet it was a comfortable sort, and with authority and power it controlled the landscape. The darkest places were lighted up, and the shadows in hiding were dispelled. The oppressive atmosphere had disappeared, and once more, no he couldn't say that - the desolate world he had been living in was finally replaced with happiness, with warmth.

Now he understood. The 'bad' people he had once labelled them as, were making changes to the light tower, making it shine brighter and lighting up not just the nearby areas, but everywhere else where the light could travel.

He looked up at the sky. It was bright. His future no longer seemed bleak.

Smiling and re-embracing the light once more, he stood up, and strode towards the light.

You light up my world like nobody else :) 

The Resolving Conclusion

Just 1 more day, and everything will return to me :)
All this time spent waiting was definitely not wasted, since it made me realise that I should never take things or even people for granted. Well, ok in short it made me realise how much I miss you :P

Today, was a long one. Met the usual guys at ishimura and there we had lunch. And ok we did feel guilty but we still went bowling instead of going to check in with the rest of the guys :/ bowling was fun as usual and yay ! I can finally maintain around 120 so that's an achievement for me at least :D !

Ohh, and we were then 4 hours late LOL. So the gorilla quickly went to the nearest NTUC to buy drinks (alcohol) for the entire chalet, and we cabbed there for free ! (courtesy of gorilla) and to top it off as to how lucky we were, it began pouring the moment we stepped into the chalet.

And then we realised that we were the only SH2 guys who were there since the rest were stuck at downtown east. - -

Hmm, basically the chalet was just about playing cards, eating catered food, playing games on the single tiny teevee in the living room, and drinking the vodka and other alcoholic drinks which gorilla bought (no I did not partake in the last activity).

And after whatever just happened (someone puked and staggered and slumped to the ground and peed all over the toilet floor, I can only say that I will never, ever drink unless necessary like a toast from an important person at a ceremony or a wedding dinner. (it was disgusting but it made me feel sad at the same time)

Yup but alright. This isn't the time for complaints or anything, and sorry for not having any visual entertainment this time round because I'm posting this with my phone :((

One more day, and everything will return to me :)) rest well and have a safe trip home :D !