Pictures , they paint a thousand words .

Back to KK again later at 6am to collect my blood results . Sigh , wonder why the staff needs to take 6 days to print out one piece of paper from the computer :/ 

Lately , i've been complaining how lazy i am , how i want to change and all that . And it's a vicious cycle , because every night , i will reflect on my work attitude before sleeping , and vow to change my lazy self by the next day . However , after waking up , the same thing repeats itself and i once more , revert back to my lazy self .

Damn .

And now , the homework completed are :

Math: 100%
Geography: 25%
Chemistry: 0%
Biology: 0%
GP: 50%

I hate myself , seriously .
Left with just 10 days , of which there's family time and friends time too . Guess i'm still the same old last minute person . It's very possible to finish all the homework . Shall set a target for myself : 7 days . And the remaining three days be used to study for the chemistry test when school reopens .

Guess that's the inspiration i get from reading other people's 70% Chinese post about the upcoming year . That's a good thing :)

My heart - It is already Yours .

Dread . Now it is a reality .

Yes , I knew it all along . The question , regardless of when it would be posed , had to be answered . It was only a matter of time before one of us would ask that .

Yet , why is it that I feel so unprepared ? Why is it that I feel so lost now ?

We wrote a prelude to our fairy tale . If the ending was unknown , then this would be a vital choice .

No one likes bad endings , but not all endings can be happy .

As I read through all your messages , I realized how close we've become . True , I don't know all your secrets , and you don't know all of mine . But there is trust . I trusted you , just as how you've trusted me . I've never doubted you before , and I don't think I ever will .

You are a workaholic . By definition , a workaholic is one who loves to work - someone who is addicted to working . By reality , you are you - a self-professed workaholic , a lazy person , an emotional soul , and an understanding individual .

So never , ever say you are a workaholic , because workaholism is not the same as working hard .

YOU , are someone who works hard , someone who works effectively , someone who works with a heart . 

YOU , are not unproductive , mindless , nor soul-less .

I am a lazy person . I hate to work . But , when the time comes , I work hard . If you work hard all the time , that only means your consistency is admirable , your determination is worth praising , and your strength is something that people should look up to .

Negligence . If you work hard , there is bound to be complete focus and little time for anything else . Yes , that is the truth , no one can change that . Only 2% of humans on Earth can multi-task , and that's because their brain is specially wired for them to do so . You're not one of the 2% , and so focusing is only natural . That is great ! Because only with focus , and hard work , can you accomplish much in life . You asked me if I was alright with you neglecting me , I said I would be fine .

Not true . What if I had asked you that exact same question ? In order to please the ears of the person , you'll probably give the same answer at the spur of the moment . However , deep inside you , you'll be saying the opposite . No one likes to be neglected by the ones they love . Similarly , I would not like to be neglected by you .

But , if you are the one working hard , and in the process leaving little time for other commitments , that is not called negligence to me . Should I force you to take time off your work for me , true that we would have companionship , true that physically , we would be together . I would be neglecting you . Oxymoron-ic , isn't it ? Because by us being together and you leaving your work uncompleted , I am not giving a thought about you , about your grades , about your future . THAT , is real negligence on my part .

So , please don't ever say you are neglecting me . Because you aren't .

Next year , which is approaching in .. 3 days approximately , is indeed going to be jam-packed with activities . Homework , Nationals and Exams . It will be stressful , painful , tiring , and no doubt , worrying . No matter what , we will go through the year . Surviving is going to be tough but when you look at seniors , they seem to be unchanged after going through that ordeal . It was the same as O levels , was it not ? Everyone thought they were not going to make it though Sec 4 , but in the end , everyone emerged alive , victorious , and euphoric .

It is the same for next year , only tougher .

My heart longs for your company , and my brain prompts me to think carefully .

Honestly , I don't know what to do . I don't know what the best decision is , what outcome it will turn out to be , and what happens after that .

I love you .

And so , being the selfish , immature , blur , idiotic person I am , I have a suggestion .

Getting together now as a couple is no doubt , out of the question . Short-lived happiness will not get us anywhere in this case . However , breaking apart from each other , for me it would be heart breaking . It will hurt , badly . I'm not trying to give you a picture of me feeling sad , dejected (even though that is happening now).

I love you .

I was thinking , what if we didn't get together , but maintained this closeness ? It sounds impossible , because of all the gossiping and whatnot that will blaze through the close-knit community of the school . What I'm trying to say is : we ONLY go out with each other when time permits , and the outings that we go out together can be partially used for completing homework/studying . And on these outings , bottled-up emotions can be poured out , accumulated stress released , long-lived love strengthened . I don't care what others say about us , because it isn't about their opinion but ours . I'm sorry , this is really selfish of myself , to be suggesting so much , but not even giving you a chance to voice your own suggestions/objections .

I love you .

In school , we will have our own timetables , our own circle of friends from our classes , our own time for revision and work . That has always been the case . But I'll always be there for you . Your daily worries , inner miseries - I'll take them all . Approach me , drag me away , and tell me your problems . Because your problems , are also my problems , and solving them with two heads is always better than one .

I love you .

In this way , we won't be officially attached , nor will we be detached from each other . However , me treating you like a good friend isn't possible , because I have already fallen for you . For you - are the miracle in my life .

I love you .

I'm sorry for making you read through this wall of text . It must have taken up approximately 5 minutes of precious time . I have given thought , considered and finally came up with this .

'The one who loves you will make you weep' . It is true . Cried , yes I have done that already .

Thank you for always being so understanding . My feelings - I wish they've reached you .

I love you - as you have always loved me .

Woke up pretty early today but of course , being the lazy person I am , I spent 1 hour dawdling in the house before deciding to go out . Initially wanted to go to Yishun library to do a bit of geography but realized that the library wasnt open yet :/

And so I decided to spring a surprise on W . But , it kind of failed :x didnt really think it would work , given that there was too much that I didnt know until I actually tried hmm . Decided to go to Westmall after that to TRY and start on geography . Another failure and after lunch , my eyes started shutting by themselves :( Shall work harder for the rest of the week !

It's a trial for us now but i'm sure we will be able to overcome it , because , you give me strength .

   



The sound of your footsteps makes a beautiful melody.
It's like ripples spreading out on a clear lake.
I watch your solemn form retreating,
Wishing I could listen to that sound forever.

You're still breathing,
And that's enough to fill my chest with emotion.
I can't seem to find the words
To express the trembling of my heart.

Your smile makes a beautiful melody.
It's like a spring field blanketed in tiny flowers.
I gaze up at the heavens, as though praying for
Rain to fall and block out the warm sunlight.

Does my harmony
Complement your melody well?

Your tears make a beautiful melody.
They're like shining gems falling through the night sky.
Aqua slurs, red staccatos...
I want to capture them between my palms and cherish them,

One by one...
Those precious sounds. 

Yes , I'll capture those precious sounds .
Those precious sounds of yourself . 

GP = Drive me Nuts = Allergy = Die :( 

Omgosh I just finished one of the two major topics for GP and im on the verge of giving up already. Like how about I give the link to wikipedia and the GP department can search for themselves .

http://www.wikipedia.org/

Gosh . ._.

I'm going to bed . And sleep happily .

Boxing Day !

It's Boxing Day !.. Alright what is Boxing Day anyway :/

Haha I sound like a mountain tortoise but ANYWAY , finally found out what it really is after wiki-ing it :O

It has something to do with giving boxes ! Boxes as in 箱子 and not 拳 (omgosh see my chinese isnt that bad after all !)

Hope W's dad doesnt ask about the remaining homework . I dont want W to get grounded so fast :(

Alright my plan to finish GP on Christmas obviously failed miserably , so I definitely have to finish it up by today . It's really annoying trying to research keywords that people already know that are associated with that topic . So I have like , 9 browsers all opened with different websites carrying the same information , just that they're phrased differently - -

I didnt even ask for it, yet morning comes I open my window and take a deep breath 
I remember you, looking mad, and I smile 
The day after we fight, you always leave your answering machine on 
When we laugh, when we have senseless talks things that are useless in everyday lifestyles, words that come up without thought. The moment when we realize is what's important.
I say "Good morning" to you, and leave you a message. 
My day starts, I gotta go 
I love hearing your voice on the phone as if nothing happened

I've been getting awkward.
Something's in the way and I can't even see the obvious things.
I realized the only one who can love me more than me is you,
Couldn’t say things like "It's probably all wrong" , and I was lost in myself.
My first step, I might be saved.

My arms around your shoulder, my hand in yours 
Because I wanna be your lover, because I wanna be your friend 
I tell you "good morning" and I fall into a dream again and 
I'm fine with that kind of natural way-of-living.

Your weird handwritings are still all precious words 
I see it all clearly when you write it 
Honesty without sincerity doesn't mean anything to you.
I tell you "good morning" again, and I fall into a dream 
It'll be great if we could spend the day happily 
The simple and obvious things like these are the easiest to lose track of

A dream seen with open eyes
Let's fly to a future unheard of together

My arms around your shoulder, my hand in yours 
Because I wanna be your lover, because I wanna be your friend 
I tell you "good morning" and I fall into a dream again and 
I'm fine with that kind of natural way-of-living.

The lyrics are directly translated , so there'll be several parts which may not be grammatically accurate . :x

This song is more than 10 years old , yet the lyrics hold truth .

With your 'weird handwritings' , I recall the moment when I said your writing was legible(It was an honest mistake when I read it wrongly !) . How embarrassing it was for both you and I !

With any memory of you every morning I wake up , it is enough to keep me going , happy .

Because the only one who can love me more than myself , is you .

Every time we love , every time we give , it's Christmas

Its almost 3 in the morning and i'm feeling really tired now but ..

MERRY CHRISTMAS WORLD ! :)

Only reached home at 2.15am and since i reached the church at like .. 8 plus . So that's like , 5 hours plus of sitting in a really large room with lots of people . Mega achievement woah ! :O Other than that , it's been a rather lazy Christmas eve so far(14 hours of nua-ing in bed and not going to the library in the end) . Hopefully this magical day will be much more productive as well , for both me and the world .





Yes , all I want for Christmas , is you .

With an unpredictable future lying ahead , what will become of us , what will be bestowed upon us , what will our actions be - all that , I do not know .

But , I know that we will brave through hardships together . I know that we will embrace happiness together . I know we will meet the shared world together .

And , I know I'll never forget how it first started .

The finale to this fairy tale , will be a blissful one .

Because of you . :)

'If a hug represented how much I loved you , I would hold you in my arms forever .' 

Had a blast today with my very , awesome friends ! :D Even the torrential rain could not ruin the day as we met up at AMK , went shopping for his birthday present(including being a nuisance outside Challenger trying to make the sensors beep every time we tried to go into the store because we had too many magnetic cards on us) , ate dinner at neBo cafe(rice with mild curry and 10 meatballs woahh) . Also managed to discover an extremely interesting card game which involves logic so it was pretty brain draining after a while , nonetheless it was fun !



The four-leaf clover found on the dolphin signified Health , Glory , Fortune and Love . If there were two dolphins , I cannot keep two servings , or rather , two of such important aspects of life to myself . You brought light into my dark life . You brought warmth into my cold self . You brought life into my dead days .

And now that I feel alive once more , I want to share the happiness , the sorrow , the worries , the calmness , the annoyance , and the love , with you .

I haven't forgotten what the two dolphins signified together .

But if two was better than one , then two people owning two dolphins is better then just one person owning two dolphins .

Because I want to share my life with you .

Because I want you to be alive , and forever be in my life . :]

Miracles Do Exist

Schneeflocke (Snowflake) by Schnuffel

I'm catching you a snowflake,
I'm catching it for you.
It's melting in your hands,
just like my little heart.

Then I tell you that I love you
and your snowbunny face,
and then I catch one more snowflake for you.

Glittering stars outside,
fire in the chimney,
you give me the warmth
when I am with you.

The snow is falling quietly here outside our door,
a beautiful wintertime with you.

I'm catching you a snowflake,
I'm catching it for you.
It's melting in your hands,
just like my little heart.

Then I tell you that I love you
and your snowbunny face,
and then I catch one more snowflake for you.

Flakes are falling, twinkling
off the canopy,
almost it is dark
on this world.

The snow is falling quietly here outside our door,
a beautiful wintertime with you.

I'm catching you a snowflake,
I'm catching it for you.
It's melting in you hands,
just like my little heart.

Then I tell you that I love you
and your snowbunny face,
and then I catch one more snowflake for you.

The snow is falling quietly here outside our door,
a beautyful wintertime with you.

I'm catching you a snowflake,
I'm catching it for you.
It's melting in you hands,
just like my little heart.

Then I tell you that I love you
and your snowbunny face,
and then I catch one more snowflake for you.

The prettiest song which I very coincidentally discovered while waiting for the test results today. It made me feel warm as i followed the lyrics. Nothing could go wrong, with the replaying song, and your wishes pushing me forward.

The results were great. When something amazing happens, we coin it as 'miracle'.

This was a miracle.

Did you have any idea how happy I was to make you happy? :)

The six times we walked around the mall. A waste of time, as what it would seem to any other person, but to me, it was a magical eternity.

The six times I offered you the jacket. A waste of effort, as what it would seem to any other person, but to me, it magicked out your smile.

The one time we sat at the park benches. Did you know how much I wanted to wrap my arms around you too?

You are a miracle.

Fairy tales are well-known for their happy endings despite the many upsets on the way. I wish this fairy tale could go on forever, because I can live without the happy ending -- Each and every moment spent with you is already a happy ending to the mundane days.

Miracles exist because of you.

Had a blast at Thomson today ! :) Although not everybody turned up , the people present really made me feel as though it was just yesterday that we saw each other in school . No one's changed , except for the occasional swag in speech or actions :o The 4 hours spent barbecuing , engaging in light-hearted conversations , playing cards and eating was well worth it .

Although i admit , that in the midst of all the fun , i got too immersed and very thoughtlessly replied slowly to well-meaning messages , and for that i feel only regret . Sorry :'(

Going for Xmas lunch tomorrow at Yishun at some church dude's house . Dont really have the strong urge to go but oh well , since i agreed , i guess it would be irresponsible for me to back down . And early on thursday morning , there's a hospital blood checkup for me to go for . Apparently i'm Thalassemia positive (hate my hereditary stuff) , just hope that i'm a minor and not major . Dont want to die that fast :/

I really am looking forward to the xmas gift exchange . Wish . I hope that you're looking forward to it too . I've never really given presents to others on xmas or other festive occasions excluding birthdays . I guess there's a first for everything , starting from you :)



I opened my eyes, last night and saw you in the low light 
Walking down by the bay, on the shore
Staring up at the planes that aren’t there anymore 

I was feeling the night, grow old and you were looking so cold 
like an introvert, I drew my over shirt
Around my arms and began to shiver violently 
Before you happened to look and see the tunnels all around me 
Running into the dark underground 
All the subways around create a great sound 
To my motion fatigue, farewell 
With your ear to a seashell 
You can hear the waves in underwater caves 
As if you actually were inside the Saltwater Room 

Time together isn't ever quite enough 
When you and I are alone, I’ve never felt so at home 
What will it take to make or break this hint of love? 
maybe time, only time

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of? 
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone? 
So tell me darling do you wish we’d fall in love? 
All the time, all the time.

Can you believe that the crew has gone
And wouldn't let me sign on
All my islands have sunk in the deep
and I can hardly relax or even oversleep

but I feel warm with your hand, in mine.
when we walk along the shoreline.
I guess we'll never know, why sparrows love the snow
We'll turn off all of the lights, and set this ballroom aglow

Time together isn't ever quite enough 
When you and I are alone I’ve never felt so at home 
What will it take to make or break this hint of love? 
only time, only time 

When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of? 
If this is what I call home, why does it feel so alone? 
So tell me darling do you wish we’d fall in love? 
All the time, all the time.

Time together isn't ever quite enough
When we’re apart whatever are you thinking of? 
What will it take to make or break this hint of love? 
So tell me darling do you wish we’d fall in love? All the time. 


Such a meaningful set of lyrics . I'm sorry for all the times i was insensitive , all the times i caused you much inconvenience , and all the times i left you alone . 

Ginseng is never sweet :/

Today , was an awesome day .

Studied in the library with P until about 2pm (i mean we started at like , 12 plus) , after that we both admitted to having hung-a-ry pangs . So , we went to have omelet rice (number 28 if i wasn't wrong) . It was overeating :x Had 1.5 servings of rice and 2 servings of soup (one apparently had cream inside :o) I guess even not-so-tasty food can taste alright when you eat it with friends , because it really wasn't that good (except for the chicken) . It was more wandering around the mall , until P very spontaneously suggested to go for a movie . Haha alright it was definitely surprising but either way , I'm so glad that i had the extra $7 on me at that time and that the theatre was Cathay (Golden Village would have been $7.50 and I would have been sad) . Managed to somehow decide which movie to watch (by unorthodox means) , and so there we were , armed with cups of coke , watching Chipwrecked . I must say , the movie was pretty good (the ratings were incredibly low 5/100 - -) , partly because of the light-hearted start , which eventually led to a more sinister and dark plot and eventually to slavery and forgiveness . And THEODORE , omgosh he's like mega cute ! Every Theodore scene , the cinema went like 'Aww' (ok i went like that anyway) , he totally defines innocence especially with the necklace scene , while watching the movie , and also the blowing out of the fire . Came out of the cinema , cold on the outside but warm on the inside :D . Again , this is the instance where the just-alright-nothing-really-special-movie can get transformed into a really memorable movie experience with the people who you watch the movie with . Walked around BPP for the first time with P after a rather wet bus ride , saw how fortunate P is with such a great mall (Yes it makes Northpoint look sorry) and more teasing before P went off first . :)

Oh yes . Ginseng is never sweet . Even if it was honey-ed , it still tastes bitter :/ Managed to down one bottle of VERY SWEET ginseng , now feeling my insides going all funny on me .

Tomorrow , is going to be another awesome day . BBQ at Bishan , meeting up with secondary school friends , buying of Xmas presents . Life is great , with friends around .

“To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.”   

Who Knew the Other Side Could be So Green Too ?

Ohh what's this on sale ? :O

Had a pretty uneventful day today . It was wake up , breakfast , nua , nua , nua and nua some more till dinner :/ I need to get out of bed and actually do stuff hmm .

Went to the other side of Yishun to do some walking around after dinner . That was probably a great move since i bought white pants(like omgosh finally since i dont have white pants at all) and a few CNY decorations and angpaos :D

Tomorrow , Saturday . I'm getting out of the house no matter what . Cant stand being such a rotten potato nua-ing at home all day while my friends are out having fun ! :( Just one problem : Who's free tomorrow until dinner time ?

Guess not . :l

Anyway , finally finished listening to Owl City's two albums and picked out a few of my favourite songs :)
The Honey And The Bee

Don't remind me that some days I'm the wind shield
And other days I'm just a lucky bug
These cold iron rails leave old mossy trails through the countryside
The crow and the bean field are my best friends but boy, I need a hug.
(Boy I need a hug)
'Cause my heart stops without you, there's something about you
That make me feel alive! 

If the green left the grass on the other side, 
I would make like a tree and leave, 
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

Don't remind me that I'm a chickadee in love with the sky, 
That's clearly not a lot to crow about, 
'Cause when the stars silhouette me, I'm scared they'll forget me, 
And flicker out.

I taste honey but I haven't seen the hive, 
Yeah, I didn't look, I didn't even try, 
But still my heart stops without you 'cause there's something about you, 
That makes me feel alive.

If the green left the grass on the other side, 
I would make like a tree and leave, 
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

We are honey and the bee, 

Backyard of butterflies surrounded me, 
I fell in love with you like bees to honey, 
So let's up and leave the weeping to the willow tree, 
And pour out tears in the sea.

I swear, there's a lot of vegetables out there, 
That crop up for air, 
Yeah, I never thought, we were two peas in a pod, 
Until you suddenly bloomed, then I knew
That I'd always love you.
Oh, I'll always love you too.

If the green left the grass on the other side, 
I would make like a tree and leave, 
If I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

If the green left the grass on the other side, 
I would make like a tree and leave, 
If I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

And if I reached for your hand for the rest of my life, Who knew the other side could be so green?

Such a cute song about two lovers ! :,)

Alright then , back to packing my room . 5 hours and still not done clearing up the mess in my room , so ashamed of myself . :/

Let's Spend the Afternoon in a Cold Hot Air Balloon

We wrote a prelude
To our own fairy tale.

Gosh , i'm getting lazier everyday . I used to be able to stay awake till the next morning without problems . Now , i start to feel sleepy at like , 9 ? - -

Fell asleep at 10 , and only woke up at 2 plus in the morning . Great . :(

Thursday . I should probably get back to bed soon to catch some sleep before the drilling starts again later at 8 am . And at that time , i really wont be able to sleep even if i wanted to .

Where should I go ? Where should I be ? Where should I go to be with you ?


So bored to death you held your breath
And I tried not to yawn
You made my frown turn upside down
And now my worries are gone.

Feelings , like a tidal wave

Today , i got deceived by my own friend .

I must say , it was done pretty well and definitely left me speechless at that exact time when i saw that cheeky grin appearing on a face , and there the person was , sitting upright on the green , round seat looking at me with a slightly cocked head , as though owl mimicking was that mysterious figure's specialty .

Oh , the embarrassment as i shuffled behind a tall bookshelf , away from direct sight . Then , it dawned upon me that the person was really there .


I emerged from the safety of the shelf and lumbered awkwardly to the green seat , the amused eyes followed , unblinking , at my displayed reaction . A muffled laugh was let out . I laughed too .


HAHA YES , WELL DONE YOU DEFINITELY SURPRISED ME ! :)

And the things which were brought :

1. White Chocolate
2. A cat-adorned pencil
3. Two dolphins tied to separate strings
4. A bottle of apple juice with pulpy bits of aloe vera
5. A mischievous yet , big caring heart

The presents , the presence , the present . I felt loved .

Fate looks sharp, severs all my ties
And breaks whatever doesn't bend
But sadly then, all my heavy hopes
Just pull me back down again

I forget the last time I felt brave
I just recall insecurity
'Cause it came down like a tidal wave
And sorrow swept over me

Then I was given grace and love
I was blind but now I can see
'Cause I found a new hope from above
And courage swept over me

It hurts just to wake up
Whenever you're wearing thin
Alone on the outside
So tired of looking in

The end is uncertain
And I've never been so afraid
But I don't need a telescope
To see that there's hope
And that makes me feel brave.

I am floating away
Lost in a silent ballet
I’m dreaming you’re out in the blue and I am right beside you
Awake to take in the view
Late nights and early parades
Still photos and noisy arcades
My darling, we’re both on the wing, look down and keep on singing!
And we can go anywhere

If this is not magic , then what is ?

Chalet was awesome ! Thursday and Friday were great days , especially with all the strange stuff the guys did in the room at 3am in the morning ! (no gaying , no worries)

Magically , my back injury healed just a tiny bit during the chalet ! :O If that wasnt enough , i actually managed to bathe twice during the stay :OO !

And today , P is returning from overseas ! How awesome is that :D Cant wait for 6.40 then :) But after that , i'll feel sad at 9pm when i cant poke fun at G for the whole of the week :(

I sprained my back .

When i think of it , i should have expected such an injury at this time .

Voldermort must have cast Crucio on me when i mentioned slicing off my nose :(

Uh , but it seriously hurts . I can only turn my neck to the right and left but the rest of my body cant move properly . It hurts when i sit down , lie down , and even when standing . Completely messed up body tskk . :/

Now i take super small steps and walk slowly like some old geezer going through rehab .

BUT .

Despite this , i WILL force myself to go for the Senior's farewell chalet tomorrow .
Not because i am forced to , but because i choose to . Which is more important , staying home to recover , or hanging out with awesome friends for 2 days ?

Obviously being with friends is a wiser choice :) (i know it's not but let me deceive myself ok :x)

And so i shall bear the crucio-ish pain and go for the chalet :D

After watching The Exorcism of Emily Rose , no thanks to my classmates , I have become more aware of the inauspicious timing of 3am , when at this time , has the highest level of paranormal activity and is also the darkest time of the day . Emily Rose (victim) was possessed by the 6 devils of hell at 3am in hospital but they first attacked her in her own bedroom at 3am previously . Likewise , the protagonist of the movie was also attacked at 3am when she was awake in her own room .

I woke up at 2.58am .

Ok , i thought it could have been just a coincidence , so i went back to bed immediately , with that nervous feeling welling up inside me already .

My heart nearly stopped at 3am . My phone screen suddenly flickered and the phone vibrated just once on the table . Although i didnt open my eyes , i was able to sense that my phone screen had came on .

Sweat broke out instantly and within seconds , i was soaked . The last sign of paranormal activity was the smelling of a burning scent , which thankfully , i did not manage to smell it . This made me less anxious and that was when i heard my mum switching off her lights to go to bed . And that completely doused all my worries . I stayed awake , replaying the song 'Pray' , in my head for at least 10minutes with my eyes squeezed shut .

The next time i awoke , it was 3.10am . I sighed inwardly , and went to youtube to watch random videos until 4am before returning back to bed .

Never in my life have i been so frightened before . Somewhere else in the world , P must be sleeping soundly and having nice dreams . I hope P is well :)

Floorball training in the afternoon , going to go for a little run before i prepare . This is why i hate horror movies .

Tired !

Had quite an awesome day , except for the part where i fell sick and still sick :/

Hmm so i guess this is probably i nice list of stuff i did today:

1. Road Run . 19:55 , it feels great to run after such a long time (4 months) of slacking ! :D Honestly , i felt that my timing was pretty terrible but it turned out to be under 20 minutes , so in the end i still managed to beat my best timing . Definitely can be improved , considering i stopped 4 times and actually lost to like , 5 people omgosh .

2. Lunch with the guys . Cards at Pizza Hut , Beef Lasagna , Free flow of Pepsi , need i further elaborate ? :)

3. Going for the first 1/3 of the training . Ok this was terrible because i had become Rudolph's apprentice by then and unable to catch up with my runny nose . Had to leave early because i couldnt even do left right without my nose dripping :(

4. Sleep . Awesome . My favourite pastime :) and also to recover quickly .

Yeah that kind of wraps up my day . Sounds quite ordinary but everyday is special to me , so i want to cherish every single day i have with my friends :)

Just received P's messages , hope you are reading this . 'Haha why does it sound like food there seems Singaporeanish ? :O you seem to be having a great time there , that's good :) hopefully you'll enjoy the food there and also the experience !'

'Haha yeah i checked the conversion rates online , i'll definitely be on the dinner table if i reply you so i'll just do it on my blog :)'

Can't wait for Saturday ! :D

It's been more than a week since holidays began and i havent even started on my homework , save math which cant really be considered . :/

Anyway , yesterday was pretty productive (except for the whole of the morning which was spent nua-ing in bed as usual - yes today was no exception) and managed to finish 30% of maths :) Originally intended to go back to Catholic High but the newly employed security guard shoo-ed me out of the school and closed the gates for the day . Just when i thought the worst was over , it started pouring heavily and I had to run for cover at bishan north , drenched like a poor kitten .

And that was when i saw this uncle working in one of the fruits stall washing the floor even though it was raining . Initially , i laughed at him inside , for i felt he was silly trying to compete with the rain . Later , i realized he had no choice , it was an order by his boss . So there he was , washing the floor in the rain and getting drenched even more than me . Despite my soaked skin , there was both coldness and warmth within .

Warmth: For i am more fortunate than him , and therefore i shall not complain . Also , for his obedience to his higher up's orders with no complaint .

Coldness: For the higher up's almost cruel treatment of his workers . It was no difference to tying a dog to a tree and leaving him in the rain , just terrible .

Hmm . So i left the place , happy and disgusted simultaneously in the rain . Walked down to the next bus stop in the rain , but strangely , i didnt feel annoyed at the downpour , for that one incident caused the deluge of thoughts , and it just made me doubt the hierarchy of society , or maybe the world even .

But , I believe that there is hope to change .


And i feel that i've gone a little off topic (rant rant rant) . :x Alright , going to make the most out of this weekend , whatever i have left at least . :)

Friends ?

Song: Dandelion

Dandelion

The lonesome lion crosses the suspension bridge

He was hated by everyone in the Savannah

The guy he met on the other side of the bridge

Resembled a lot the sun

Are you not afraid of me?

Will you stay and not run away?

Together with the skimming breeze

He nodded once

Do you know the reason of tears?

I don’t get it, but

The warmth of wet cheeks

It was probably you who taught it to me

The lion, even in rainy days, makes the suspension bridge sway

Holding gold-coloured amber in his mouth.

My present, today, is a pebble

That resembles a lot this taciturn you

Rumbling thunders struck the suspension bridge

As I open my eyes from the pain

The sky became further, smaller

Has it made you cry?

Can you hear this cheerful voice?

This way will surely be all right

The coldness of wet cheeks

Or their meaning, you don’t have to know it

Under the un-stopping rain, my blood starts running

If I was to be born again

If I could resemble you

I wonder if I will be loved

This cheerful voice doesn’t come out anymore, but

I don’t feel lonely nor surprised

The coldness of wet cheeks

It was probably you who took it away

Do you know the reason of tears?

I don’t get it, but

The warmth of this heart

Seems fine with such an answer

Seasons come around Spring is coming

It puts a gold-coloured make-up until the bottom of the valley

The dandelions that bloom all over

Resemble a lot that lion.

This song seems cutesy with all the animation , but it really holds an infinitely deep meaning to life . I have yet to discover if I am the lion or the Sahara's animals ; the bullied or the bully . I have made friends , laughed with them , cried with them , argued with them , made up with them again . The dandelion was only a speck in the field of other flowers - it was tiny , harmless . Yet it befriended the ostracized lion regardless of size or features .

I want to be that lion . I want to be one who can rely on friends . I want to be one who can leave an impression on friends . I want to be one who can share secrets with friends . I want to be one , who can leave this world happily , knowing that my friends will live with my spirit pushing them forward .



I wish I could find those friends .