3 months since it all happened . And exactly 2 months after if all ended .
I hope you are well .
Ok who am I kidding . With that sheer volume of stress built up and placed on your shoulders , it is hardly surprising that you complain about work almost everyday .
Think . Complaining doesnt solve anything , does it ? True , it allows you to channel your stress away even for just a temporary moment . But when you return to face the intimidating pile , you will only feel worse than before .
Still , I hope you are well .
Because I remember , we promised to make it through this year in one piece . So please dont break down into fragments yet .
Because wondering whether you have chosen the right path will mean doubting your past 16 years of your life .
This probably wont help but all the best . Hang on . Please .
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Saturday, February 25, 2012
I need a Blue Sky Holiday
-How many times have I told you , when sleeping in the mrt , always keep your phone in your bag ! But did you listen ? No ! You never listen !-
-I don't want to know anything about you and your phone already-
-Do what you want ok-
-You're a burden-
I lied . I never lost my phone on the mrt . I never slept on the mrt today . I never wanted to be a burden .
It was stolen from me .
Not only was the phone stolen . The trust , happiness , belief that I was a responsible person were all taken away from me .
I can't bring myself to say the phone was stolen , because a stolen phone , a lost phone , is still a phone gone .
The words hurt . They hurt so badly . You have no idea how much I cried on the inside . You have no idea how much I died on the inside .
To the person who took so much away from me . Thank you . Because of you , I can emerge as a stronger person . Thank you for that emotional hurt . Thank you for the inconvenience . Thank you for messing up my life .
Yet amidst these terrible events , I thank my friends who were there for me . Because of them , I needn't cry in public . I needn't bear the burden by myself .
The hug from E really took the huge load of my shoulders today . It made me realize how important friends really are . Because the friends I made were the ones who shaped me for who I am today .
And so , with such great people around me to push me forward , I cannot remain down forever . Just hope that everything will be resolved soon .
-I don't want to know anything about you and your phone already-
-Do what you want ok-
-You're a burden-
I lied . I never lost my phone on the mrt . I never slept on the mrt today . I never wanted to be a burden .
It was stolen from me .
Not only was the phone stolen . The trust , happiness , belief that I was a responsible person were all taken away from me .
I can't bring myself to say the phone was stolen , because a stolen phone , a lost phone , is still a phone gone .
The words hurt . They hurt so badly . You have no idea how much I cried on the inside . You have no idea how much I died on the inside .
To the person who took so much away from me . Thank you . Because of you , I can emerge as a stronger person . Thank you for that emotional hurt . Thank you for the inconvenience . Thank you for messing up my life .
Yet amidst these terrible events , I thank my friends who were there for me . Because of them , I needn't cry in public . I needn't bear the burden by myself .
The hug from E really took the huge load of my shoulders today . It made me realize how important friends really are . Because the friends I made were the ones who shaped me for who I am today .
And so , with such great people around me to push me forward , I cannot remain down forever . Just hope that everything will be resolved soon .
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Seven Stars
The past 2 weeks sped by really fast and the next thing i knew - wham . Another week to go through . Not that it's a bad thing , if you remove tests , homework , school . Oh that's pretty much everything .
CCA and school has taken up the bulk of the time spent awake (which isnt a lot) . I used to have sleep-in saturdays . Now , i have sleep-in-till-7-am saturdays . And sunday is spent repaying sleep debt , going out with family and relaxing a little . Duhhh , obviously not much homework is going to be completed .
And something really crappy just happened .
I'm sorry if this was lame . Because I think it is . Shall repost the second part tomorrow . I need to shut out the world for tonight quickly . If not im going to go mad with all the screaming and hollering at me .
CCA and school has taken up the bulk of the time spent awake (which isnt a lot) . I used to have sleep-in saturdays . Now , i have sleep-in-till-7-am saturdays . And sunday is spent repaying sleep debt , going out with family and relaxing a little . Duhhh , obviously not much homework is going to be completed .
And something really crappy just happened .
I'm sorry if this was lame . Because I think it is . Shall repost the second part tomorrow . I need to shut out the world for tonight quickly . If not im going to go mad with all the screaming and hollering at me .
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
People disappear . Oh well , not like I didnt expect it . Just didnt think it would happen so quickly .
Remember that internet meme "I message a long meaningful message .. You answer with one word" . Gosh that makes so much sense now . So many people doing that . Not that everyone has to reply . In fact , I guess replying is already good enough for me . Maybe I'm just being a little brat who wants acknowledgement . Yes , that must be it .
Maybe I shouldnt bother anymore . I tried . I used to laugh at my friends when they had such messages from their friends . I don't laugh at them anymore .
And I do have a knack for proving people wrong . So just dont get me riled up . Because when I do , you'll regret ever having to drive me up the wall . So little time , so many things . Well , find time . 24 hours not enough , make it 25 hours then .
And teachers who really think highly of themselves . PLEASE . Dont . Especially to a certain teacher , your arguments are SO flawed that it pains me to bother to start a class debate with you . Your categorization of information is SO terrible that it pains me to take down whatever you say . Oops , I shouldnt use whatever since its slang language . 10 years of seniority does not make you a perfect being . Neither am I one . But learn your place - You're merely a pawn in this harsh society . You're used by others . You don't have a say .
Respect - you dont have it , you earn it .
Grr . This absurdity is driving me nuts .
And the rope just got a bit more tensed now .
Remember that internet meme "I message a long meaningful message .. You answer with one word" . Gosh that makes so much sense now . So many people doing that . Not that everyone has to reply . In fact , I guess replying is already good enough for me . Maybe I'm just being a little brat who wants acknowledgement . Yes , that must be it .
Maybe I shouldnt bother anymore . I tried . I used to laugh at my friends when they had such messages from their friends . I don't laugh at them anymore .
And I do have a knack for proving people wrong . So just dont get me riled up . Because when I do , you'll regret ever having to drive me up the wall . So little time , so many things . Well , find time . 24 hours not enough , make it 25 hours then .
And teachers who really think highly of themselves . PLEASE . Dont . Especially to a certain teacher , your arguments are SO flawed that it pains me to bother to start a class debate with you . Your categorization of information is SO terrible that it pains me to take down whatever you say . Oops , I shouldnt use whatever since its slang language . 10 years of seniority does not make you a perfect being . Neither am I one . But learn your place - You're merely a pawn in this harsh society . You're used by others . You don't have a say .
Respect - you dont have it , you earn it .
Grr . This absurdity is driving me nuts .
And the rope just got a bit more tensed now .
Monday, February 6, 2012
Spinning round and round in this endless Cartwheel
I'll try my best to keep this blog alive by posting weekly at least ! It'll get dusty if I leave it too long alone so I guess I need to keep it clean and sparkly somehow :)
Alright the past week was quite alright actually . Surprising , considering how much i detest stepping into the grey-ish interior of *ahem* prison *ahem*(that was my bad cough and had nothing to do with the terrible school whatsoever) .
Kind of slacked away my entire weekend doing practically NOTHING . Like seriously . Nothing . Guess old habits won't die off that fast .
Anyway today's Monday . And well , as usual , it was like WIIM (Why Is It Monday :( !) Lessons were more or less the same - boring and dreary . Floorball PT just took on a whole new level of sadism today . 2 rounds warm up , 10 minutes of step ups , 6 minutes of plank hops, 200 lunges , 160 crunches , 160 leg raises , 8 minutes of plank , 160 superman , 30 regular pushups , 30 enhanced pushups , 25 pull ups , sprints .
And yes . I'm ready to crash anytime but cannot since there's more to be done for today .
Having some geography seminar tomorrow outside school from 11.30 to 3 plus . So that's like , no pe or gc for me yay ! :D Too bad I'll need to rush back to school for chem consol and training after that .
Oh well . At least it's going to be informative and interesting(i hope) !
And I relived my childhood after listening to this . It really took up a large portion of my life when I was just a wee child .
And now , back to reading the pre-seminar notes :)
Alright the past week was quite alright actually . Surprising , considering how much i detest stepping into the grey-ish interior of *ahem* prison *ahem*(that was my bad cough and had nothing to do with the terrible school whatsoever) .
Kind of slacked away my entire weekend doing practically NOTHING . Like seriously . Nothing . Guess old habits won't die off that fast .
Anyway today's Monday . And well , as usual , it was like WIIM (Why Is It Monday :( !) Lessons were more or less the same - boring and dreary . Floorball PT just took on a whole new level of sadism today . 2 rounds warm up , 10 minutes of step ups , 6 minutes of plank hops, 200 lunges , 160 crunches , 160 leg raises , 8 minutes of plank , 160 superman , 30 regular pushups , 30 enhanced pushups , 25 pull ups , sprints .
And yes . I'm ready to crash anytime but cannot since there's more to be done for today .
Having some geography seminar tomorrow outside school from 11.30 to 3 plus . So that's like , no pe or gc for me yay ! :D Too bad I'll need to rush back to school for chem consol and training after that .
Oh well . At least it's going to be informative and interesting(i hope) !
And I relived my childhood after listening to this . It really took up a large portion of my life when I was just a wee child .
And now , back to reading the pre-seminar notes :)
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