To tell you frankly, we've never had a proper farewell and closure to our chapter. It's the same as an author penning down his thoughts onto paper and deciding it wouldn't work out - tossing it aside.
The truth is - I want to thank you for ending it early. It hurt both of us, yes, but it just hurt. It was a haunting kind of pain, but it was not an agony that cannot be lived with. Having said that, it opened up my eyes, that we weren't meant to be together. Mayhaps that's the reason why I bounced back so quickly. I left without a word? No, I had many words. But those words meant nothing - for it had already ended before it began.
No amount of 'sorries' can ever resolve that gaping hole which we dug up and landed ourselves in. Still - I am sorry, for going down to orchard that night in the end of November 2011 to pay a visit to a tinkering you. I am sorry, for having made you stand at the bus stop which was smoky and crowded yet flooded while you wore your green shoes. I am sorry, for having what was supposedly the best time of 2011, only to be torn apart on New Year's Eve.
I've learnt my lesson which you taught me. Thank you. Thank you for pushing me away. Thank you for making the effort. Thank you for J. You've lost a lot, and so have I. But we've gained priceless, intangibles in return. So may 2013 be a year of opportunity for you.
